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Saturday, January 1st, 2005
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2004 was a memorable year.....I just am too bla out of it to type my favorite things about it. So last night was lots of fun. My camera ran out of batteries which made me sad...so i didn't really get that many pictures. But omg i set ericka;s stove on fire!! i'm a house ruiner...i really am. Yeah but we had some good fun. I am still an eency weenie bit sick. School monday. Ahhhhh.
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Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
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| Subject: | arggggg |
| Time: | 7:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  irritated. | | Music: | Cowboy take me away-dixie chicks. |
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I wasn't going to write in this anymore..just because I don't really feel like writing in this. Butttttt I'm so mad....my car was jsut taken from me like that..Arggggg. My sister's car died and so now she gets mine...and it is not fair b/c a- she sucks at driving, b-she is going to leave her crap in it just like her old car...which as everyone saw today, there is no room to put your feet or sit, c-she's going to put all her cds in it. ANd this summer...argggg we are gonig to be fighting for the car. Maybe I can save up enough money to buy one...I mean they're not that much money right, few thousand right? And I have a job..ok so that's my new goal. Yay. Donations will be gladly accepted. Monday the fam fam and all of us went to the city and iceskated in central park as always. It was cold. But it was fun. And today me tara sara and ericka went iceskating at the civic center. On the way there some guy was bouncing his head in his car and we were all laughing at him and then he put up his two index fingers at us...We have some idea of what that may have meant. Now I'm just hanging out. I like this break. I would like to hang out with more people. Hopefully I do somethign for new years and if not its out to dinner with the shea shea's and going to see meet the fockers. I have a resolution (besides saving money for a car of my own) but i'm not telling. I'm going to watch the body guard tonight. Now i don't feel good though, but if someone paid me to take my medicine i think i'd take it more often when i'm supposed to
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Sunday, December 26th, 2004
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| Subject: | christmas |
| Time: | 11:47 am. |
| Mood: |  thankful. | | Music: | how will i know- Whitney houston. |
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Had a very good christmas. Christmas eve was tons of fun. Some really interesting stories.. My personal favorite was january 31st. Or could've been how my aunt bought my cousin porn on accident? Priceless. I looooved the present my grammy sent up to all of us. My used manicure set...Oh it's amazing. I want to trade it for the rusty nail my mom got. Haha straaaange. So we had to go to church because matt had to acolyte. Ohhh my god...It was the longest service i've ever been to. And it was soo hot! I can't stand next to my sister though because I always start laughing. She wishes she could sing the hymns. Santa was good to me :) I got a digital camera. And season 6 of friends, scene it dvd game *very fun, trivial pursuit 90's, an american eagle fleece shirt thing, picture frames and albums, a really pretty picture to hang over my bed, billy joel cd, top gun soundtrack and some other things. My sister made me 4 mix cds which are amazing along with makeup and fairfield stag shorts. Di di was a great secretsanta! I can't wait to just relax now. Tomorrow we'll be off skating in central park with the McDermott's and the shea's..No collins's this time:( Oh and erin got ddr. I'm so good. Pshhh almost. Dodgeball was the funniest movie ever...well not ever, but it was funny.
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Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
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I'm sooo wide awake because i took a nap form 3-6 and i'm soo awake right now. So i'm watchign home videos...This one is from christmas 1992. It's great. The McDermott's party...how I do miss those. When my dad dressed as santa we all went crazy...Strange how you could see my dad's brown hair and still think it was really santa. Me and my sister were so funny. And we never fought when we were younger. Oh how things have changed..Just today we were arguing about what to listen to while we were cleaning. I had some great childhood memories. One of these days i'll write a book. I can't believe missy and greg are engaged. It still feels like yesterday when we would play try not to get the same book and fight over who got to do the cash register in grammy's store. Man i miss that store/house. Some awesome memories..I wish people could see how much fun things were and lkie just freeze time. I loved christmases from a long time ago....sigh so great....Possible plans for after new years makes me happy.
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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
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| Subject: | ahhh |
| Time: | 3:11 pm. |
| Mood: |  jealous. | | Music: | Live like you were dying- tim mcgraw!!!! *thanks bobbie. |
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So last night...could it have been any more embarassing!??!?! But i guess it's ok, i just feel so stupid! And everyone keeps saying it's ok that it's a good thing and then i found out that its not because I hate there being an age difference. And I started off the vacation kind of sad which makes me kind of worried that I'm going to make it suck...like last year the start of summer vacation sucked and so my whole summer pretty much sucked. Me and the girls are all planning to go iceskating soon! Yay. Looove my tim mcgraw cd from bobbie jo! and My Chemical Romance cd from becca! Along with the hershey syrup...Hahahahahahahahahaha that was the funniest thing ever. And when people ask about it i'm like ummmm insdie joke? Mr. berkley was humming mariah carey today. It was funny. I liked it, it's good when people dont' care about what music they listen to. Elf is so funny. I announced to the gym today that my favorite part was coming up...so now the world should know. I hope this break is awesome. Someone plan something for new years eve. Carine is leaving me for all the break!
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Sunday, December 19th, 2004
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Last night was pretty tough. Sara's party was fun but then afterwards I had to go to my aunts wake and it was so hard. I don't do funerals...I started crying in the car on the way there. None of my cousins or siblings went so it was just me which made it really tough. And then i started crying when i saw my mom and then I had to say a prayer in front of my aunt. She looked so peaceful and beautiful. And then I was sitting down and my aunt mare came over to me and asked how i was and i just lost it....I hate crying. I can never imagine not having my mom or dad around. And if I ever had to go to their funeral I would die from crying. And I hated it last night because people kept asking me if I was ok..NO i'm not! and I shouldn't be the one that they are asking. That'd be the toughest part if I lost someone and was at their funeral but it was someone like a sister or parent, and people would come up to me and say sorry. I think i'd tell people not to. Tomorrow is the actual funeral but i'm not going. 1-I couldn't handle it 2-my mom won't let me miss school. I'm still so upset. I have little crying outbreaks throughout the day so don't be surprised if I cry tomorrow in school. I wish I had never said anything mean to my mom or dad. It's times like these when you realize how important people are to you. Work went by really fast today. I had a really good cup of hot cider. Matt is so funny. I can't believe christmas is so soon. I'm not in the spirit and I'm not ready. Christmas was always the best. I loved it..I was soo christmas crazy. my sister is such an idiot sometimes. I have so much stuff to do. Kohls is really good to shop at at 11 o clock saturday night. Stuff was sooo cheap it was great!
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Friday, December 17th, 2004
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| Subject: | yikes |
| Time: | 8:33 pm. |
| Mood: |  rushed. | | Music: | Hold me, thrill me, kiss me. |
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Yikes i am so stressed again about christmas...I shouldn't be though....But i haven't done anything yet like make cards or nething and wrap presents, nothing....Bake...None of that. It defintely is too soon for christmas. I have to get everything done by wednesday and that seems impossible. usually I loooove christmas andany of that. I haven't gotten to watch Christmas movies...THe only thing I have been doing is listening to non stop christmas songs which are really annoying get so excited and so holiday spirited but I haven't had any free time for me now. The days are too short and there's not enough time. Tomorrow night I wanted to go shopping but Im going to sara's party and then a wake. So there goes saturday, and sunday i'm working till 3 so mabye after? I don't know...my mom hates me right now so that doesn't look like it'll be happening. I am not liking the way things are going these days. I did clean my room tonight. I wish i wans't so tired and then I could get some things done..such as christmas cards and make my candy crafts and watch christmas movies but i'm exhausted and going to bed at 9 pm on a friday night. Funnn.
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Thursday, December 16th, 2004
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I don't know why I am even on, I shoudn't be on...My parents are really mad at me about my prog. report, but I'm trying. I really am! And I have to go to a funeral saturday, a thing sunday and monday and i don't know what is going to happen now with school stuff. And the worst part is what my mom said to me after i was so mad at her for making me late to babysitting and I was yelling at her and then i felt like the worst person in the world. I never got to even say goodbye or anything. I wonder what heaven is like....I wish we could know, but then, i am glad at the same time we don't know. WHat makes me the most sad is that like when my aunt over the summer died and now my other aunt, they'll never get to see their kids get married or anything. Things suck right now.
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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:14 pm. |
| Mood: | sad. |
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What exactly does it mean when someone is in a coma? I don't understand. Someone hook me up with a breast cancer bracelet please. :(
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Monday, December 13th, 2004
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| Subject: | oldies |
| Time: | 5:12 pm. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | You've lost that lovin feeling- Righteous brothers. |
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On my launch player i'm listening to the oldies station...it's awesome. They make me so happy. I just feel like dancing with a broom when i hear them. Once again i'm frozen in the basement. I had 7 minutes to get ready today...i was woken at 6:50 and got the bus at 6:57....and matt ate my krispie creme donughts and as all of you know i'm very sensitive about my food, including my donughts. And when my mom overcooked my ramen last night...ohhhhh she got hell for that. So anyway there was a chunk of my donught left and i chucked it across the kitchen unaware my family was in there and i was cursing at the donught and tehn my hair tie broke and i dropped the f bomb...Notttt a good morning. School...ehhh actually i am doing good compared to waht i thought in physics i was like pshhh hell yeah! and math i got a 73 on a quiz which made my day....lol i know i know it sucks, but normally i'm lkie in the 50s....so it's a start. I found out someting about someone and it is a plus. I'm so damn tired! I need to do pilates tonight....And i need to hang my christmas decorations that i said i was going to hang 3 weeks ago...so right now they are on my floor. Ok so i was feeling a little obnoxious when i got home from school and so i put peanut butter on the bake of those striped chocolate and vanilla cookies and put them on my eyes and i had cookies glasses. BUt still...unnecessary for my brother to put up as my away message....haha i don't know what got into me.
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Sunday, December 12th, 2004
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Ok so i'm freezing...But i just did all my hw for once, wait no...still need to do english, which i never do....last night wasn't so fun. I was so sad. And my tree made me sad b/c i don't like it. And my mom overcooked my ramen and i had to throw it out. But then they all went shopping and i took a bubble bath and then i was ok, but then my aunt called and said she was banging on the front door b/c she wanted to see the suzinator, so i had to get out and it wasn't fun. Really pretty unproductive night. I was crying at one point on the kitchen floor and suzi was licking my tears and i had to laugh of course. So she made me all better :) I need a new icon picture. I worked today and it went by really fast. It was fun. I so scared matt coming out of the bagel fridge in the cellar thing or idk what it is...but i got him good. And then some lady called complaining about her tree how the needles were falling off and i had to put her on hold b/c i was laughing. Seriously, ok ur needles fall off what are we supposed to do lady? Go buy a fake tree. When i came home i tried to make a fire but i really suck at that. So i had my brother do it. I liek fire. Oh no not liek pyromaniac like that, just like fireplaces in the winter and christmas. I wish I knew what to say. And why can't I get over it/them. As i said to carine last night, "he's just not that into you ringing a bell?" This stinks.
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Saturday, December 11th, 2004
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| Time: | 8:08 pm. |
| Mood: | enraged. |
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scratch that entry this sucks so bad! i am so mad at myself. ARGGGGGGG i am ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mad!!!!!!!!!!! Damnit!!!
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Ok so now that niki just announced to my family all their presents..i'm not happy. She ran away crying b/c i screamed at her....but oh well, now everyone's presents are ruined. So we didn't end up going skiing today, but last night at 1 am we were having second guesses and wanted to go, but its ok that we didn't, i got most of my christmas shopping done today. Wed and thurs we all stayed in the library....didn't get anything done but it was so fun. Vinnie is the funniest kid ever. This week took forever to go by. Ericka slept over last night but we had to babysit these kids up my road b/c there was a christmas party for everyone on the road...wow they were strange. "sometimes we like to spit on the dog and watch him try and lick it off." Then we walked down good old o'hare drive and we baked cookies and listened to my mix tapes. no comment on the cookies. We did pilates this morning. It was fun. Then we just went shopping. And in every store my bags made the retarded buzzers go off because in old navy the present i got niki and kristen wasn't scanning so he had to type it in, and so all the alarsm went off...it was pretty bad, no one ever bothered to check my bags though. BUt i would never steal anything so it's ok. I'm going to have a christmasy night tonight. I can't wait till jan 8- our next ski trip
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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| Time: | 4:38 pm. |
| Mood: |  grumpy. | | Music: | my perogative. |
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Blah. 2 hour delay. Blah. I teared in math today. I cannot believe how bad things have gotten. And I am so completely confused b/c i understand it all. Thats the worst part of it all. Physics makes me upset too. I'm such an idiot. I wish everything came so easily to me. I have a very low tolerance level of people. The littlest things make me hate someone. I started doing Pilates again last night.. I figured, running just idk gets me all tired and i don't have my running shoes b/c they are in my locker and Pilates is so relaxing. I started laughing in the middle of it b/c the camera focused on this little chinese man and he was doing leg lifts and he had tight spandex shorts on...It made me laugh. I have a lab and a whole lot of studying to do. I promised this year would be different..but so far it's not and I'm messing it up. I get all depressed when people start talking about colleges. Ski trip saturday. Ehh i'm nervous, first time skiing this year. Blah. Nothing worth talking about. Eh.
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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
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I <3 when the beach boys are on full house...It's so corny that it makes me happy and i love it. Tonight was oh so much fun. I love to laugh. Becca and I did some crazy hair dos and i made her eyes look like she got punched...haha it was great. Then we got extra crazy and i put chocolate syrup on her face and chocolate chunky milk came out of my mouth and then....some trouble occured and we had to mop it up...haha it happens! The video of me doing mission impossible was priceless...i hurt my knee! Today when I walked by a courtyard i told her my wedding plans by the stone weedy fountain with the culinary classes cooking my wedding reception food and we'll eat in the cafeteria and my hubby will serenade me down the stairs...Haha i was just kidding though, but it would be cheap and funny to remember. Who wants to marry me in a courtyard??? Ehhhh I hate when people are mean!!! It makes me sooo mad and sad. And I cry. Especially in 8th grade when nick prince and all those jerky boys would make fun of nick doyle...It made me so sad. And I always wish I could say somethign, but i don't. Whoaaaa what is the world coming to, I just saw a commercial for a spongebob movie and david hasslehoff has a part. Erin was playing with the porcelain villages my mom collects tonight and she asked if I would play and I kinda just looked at her....And then i remembered all the good times me and meghan would have playing with it. I miss my childhood....But it's not the same, I lost my imagination. Help me find it. Can't go shopping tomorrow. Mannn when am I ever going to do my christmas shopping!?!?! Looks like everyone is getting IOU's this year. ONe year i gave matt and erin snowman poop aka marshmallows. I miss the sugarplum fair how great was my elementary school...one year i bought my dad this box of chocolate covered raisins, but it said fishing hooks and bait on it.....so i got it, and he doesn't eat raisins...so they sat in the fridge forever. Amazing how much crap I remember...But really it's not crap, it's memories. I killed my back last night thinking i could run 4.5 miles at 4 mph on the treadmill with a 100 lb bag on my back....i definitely ruined it..and in the mean time lost 20 bucks..I just wanted to prove myself, why i thought i could do it I don't know...i can't even run 4.5 miles without 100 lbs! Estoy loca! I wrote a note to nae all in spanish today, i was proud.
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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| Time: | 3:26 pm. |
| Mood: | nervous. |
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i came home sick today. Meh. So i watched will and grace. Becca and sara aren't on our ski bus :( Tear tear. My piano teacher died tuesday. See the first time someone told me she died...but in actuality she was dying....and so now she died and I wrote her a letter and i never got to mail it yet and it was really sweet..about how i loved learning from her and all this stuff...and i am not going to the funeral because i breakdown at funerals. And a few weeks ago when she called and said she was sick and that she couldn't teach me anymore i was like oh it's fine feel better, like nothing was wrong...but it was because i was starting to cry...so she thinks that i don't care, and that the last 7 years were nothing. I always wonder who would come to my funeral or if people would chicken out like i do. Today was not a good day. I wish i could take stuff back or actually...do something back....like mailing the letter...you never know when people are going to die and all the sweet quotes about like, cherish every day like it's your last or like always tell people you love them because you never know when you'll lose them, i guess those really are true. meh. my sister is a mustard plug. Math and phyiscs quizzes tomorrow....ahhh nervioso
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Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
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I feel greaaaat lol. I felt so happy today. not quite sure why. I got soaked this morning..I was wringing water out of my hair..DId not make me happy. I'm too lazy to do homework right now. I hate when in popcorn you get a really hard burnt piece of kernel. I hate my spanish seat. I can't see with everyones heads. And the kid next to me talks to himself a lot. It's funny actually. My dad is in competition with the neighbors for the best christmas lights...It's funny. I'm entertianing myself by talking liek the party mania girls. Haha whos' played that game?!??!? You know you have and if not you know you want to come over and see the greatness of it. Mehhhhhh i'm cold down here som i'm going to make hot cocoa...this was fun
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Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
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| Time: | 5:48 pm. |
| Mood: |  blank. | | Music: | Coheed and cambria. |
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Ehhh nothign much to say except I had to sit with weird/mean seinfield psycho boys in the library, one of which is short, mean, condescending and arggg is never going to get a girlfriend because he's so mean, b/c SOMEBODY stole my seat and the punginator made me leave the table. Not the first time this somebody has disrupted somethig like that. SKI CLUB ehhh hemmmmm. i finally returned the bean trees from the summer.. Haha mrs pung just looked at me and goes whoa whoa we're getting into the retro books now. What can I say, I procrastinate, to say the least. I get math...for once. Ms. polityka sort of yelled at me, but kind of didn't, idk, but i was writing a note and then i was folding it up and she saw and said something. But maybe if she didn't move my seat to be on top or her desk then argggg!!!! I have random outbreaks of laughing. I think of somethign and just start laughing. I'm watching happy gilmore, well more like listening to it. I <3 this movie. I remember the first time i saw it was in wildwood. The price is wrong bitch. What's with seinfield....is it really that funny? I don't get it. someone please fill me in
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Sunday, November 28th, 2004
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Suzi is the cutest most adorable thing in the world!!!!!!! omg i looooove her. Ehhhh her wrinkles are the cutest!!!!! She's sooo tiny. Beleive me, got lots of pictures of the little angel! I'm very relieved..I know exactly what i'm getting my secret santa!! I even partially got her gift. Yay! I promised myself i wouldn't stress about who i'm getting gifts for and everything and whether or not they will like it or not. My sister just left back to school. We ate dinner at 3 o clock...now it feels like 8. Carine came by last night to see suzi and ericka came over for 5 min today to see her. I think matt is going to use her to secretly pick up girls. Because who wouldn't go craaaazy for my baby girl!!! Our christmas lights are up. My chain will be hung later tonight. Pshhhh i don't understand why my sister says it's ugly! Oh it is beautiful. Work of art. Ski trip is in 2 weeks....I can't wait. I always seem to lose something though.
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Saturday, November 27th, 2004
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Thanksgiving was good. I wasn't really in the spirit though. Shopping, i didn't have any idea of gifts to get people so i didn't do much. I did get season 1 of will and grace for $13 instead of the original $35, so i got it for myself. Got to see missy and greg thursday. Yay for missy my love who got into FIT, but now i'll never get to visit her in Oneonta. But FIT will still be fun if I were to visit. Once again, in trivial pursuit, my answers were disregarded...even though i was right a few times. greg underestimates me. Thursday night we went to the collins's and the mcdermotts were there! yay! We played capture the flag, thanksgiving just isn't complete without everyone arguing about if it was fair...same old. I fell asleep early. Then we got up at 6 and went SHOPPING!!!! Craziness. I love ka's strategies and plans. Bestbuy was insane. I love it how everyone is silent when i see a tim Mcgraw poster and go "Omg who saw the time mcgraw concert wednesday?" and all are silent. BTW i don't like tim my love's chest hair. Then after shopping we saw polar express. It was awesome. I fell asleep during the previews, bc we were there 1/2 hr early and i dozed off and kerry and erin thought it'd be funny to tell me i slept through the movie. I didn"t buy it though. I had to work today and now my sister is going to have a lil party while my parents are gone getting our puppy!!!!! Ahhhhh so excited!!! Wooooo can't wait to see her. I'm so sad though erin didn't like the name bella..So now it's suzi.
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